John’s Birthday Message
Darling John
It’s your birthday and yet again we have to write to you to tell you that we love and miss you so much, today we should be telling you “Happy Birthday” but instead this day is filled with heartache and tears, me and your Dad dread these days because they should bring laughter and joy (we loved taking the mick out of you because you hated getting older) all your birthdays now just bring us both heartache and pain.
John so much has happened in this year so many things that you should have been here to celebrate, you would have laughed at your Dad when we went on our first plane trip, it was me that was terrified of flying I was so scared to go on the plane, I was sweating and so much in a panic, but once we were on board it all went away, I had to help your Dad instead to relax because once we started to taxi on to the airfield he went to pieces, I told him that if you where alive you would of ribbed him so much.
John when we were up in the air flying, a most peculiar thing happened to me, I felt so close to you it was so lovely and peaceful and flying in the clouds made me so relaxed I had the feeling that you were out there somewhere, that if I had to describe where I thought that your spirit had gone it would be out there above the clouds and maybe on one of the many planets out there, I don’t believe in heaven John, but I do believe that good soles like you go to a peaceful and good place and that you are united with loved ones that have also passed to the spirit world.
John, look after your brother for us because he is making big changes in his life, keep him safe for us both, he will be so far away from us all, we want to ask you to help him settle in and find true happiness with Vanessa, let’s hope that they don’t take too long to get settled in and that his new family like him and that he makes it all work out.
Thank you John for letting me know that you are not at all bitter about being taken so soon it made me so happy to know that you are watching over us all, you proved to me that you are about and are always aware how we are both feeling.
We will never ever be the same people that we where before your death, we live in a world filled with so much pain and sorrow, we try so very hard to be normal but we can’t be those people again, your death has broken both our spirit’s we find no joy in life, we have to watch every one else celebrating, someone getting married, having children, having family celebrations, BBQ, watching their grandchildren growing up and so many events that break our hearts because we will never have any of these things from you, we have all been denied these things all because of the selfishness of one man who could not wait for one minute, in that minute he took the decision to cut in front of you and so taking you from us all.
John there are even more changes that are going to happen to me and your father in the future, we are both in agreement that these changes are for the best, we ask you to help us both to make the right decisions and that when these changes happen we will be able to bear the pain and heartache that we are going though at your death a little better.
Life is such a fragile thing, we all never think that it can happen to us, we never though in a million years that one of our sons would be taken from us. The way that life is it should be the parent’s not the child that dies first John, that is why we cannot move on, we cannot find joy or hope in life, we cannot accept that evil, horrible people are left to reek pain and suffering on people they don’t even know and they are left to do this, but John lovely people like you are taken, you where the most loving, caring beautiful son in the world and you where taken in the most cruellest way, and after your death you where treated no better by people who were supposed to help you receive the justice you where entitled to, this fact makes us so sad John because if anyone deserved justice you did.
There are thousands of people like you who are murdered on our roads, who did not receive the justice they so rightly deserved, families like us that are punished by selfish people that don’t care how they drive and take innocent peoples life’s, there are families just like us going through their own hell, these families have to live in the knowledge that they too are denied justice.
We are going today to the crematorium to yet again leave you flowers and your card, but today we will both be asking ourselves “why”, we will never know the answer to this question John because there is no answer, we will always be wondering if only you had waited, if only the man that murdered you had let you pass, then maybe you would still be alive and our life would be normal again but this will never be.
You are loved and missed by us both John, we will never forget you son
Until we meet again rest in peace.
Luv’s Ya John xxxxxx
It’s your birthday and yet again we have to write to you to tell you that we love and miss you so much, today we should be telling you “Happy Birthday” but instead this day is filled with heartache and tears, me and your Dad dread these days because they should bring laughter and joy (we loved taking the mick out of you because you hated getting older) all your birthdays now just bring us both heartache and pain.
John so much has happened in this year so many things that you should have been here to celebrate, you would have laughed at your Dad when we went on our first plane trip, it was me that was terrified of flying I was so scared to go on the plane, I was sweating and so much in a panic, but once we were on board it all went away, I had to help your Dad instead to relax because once we started to taxi on to the airfield he went to pieces, I told him that if you where alive you would of ribbed him so much.
John when we were up in the air flying, a most peculiar thing happened to me, I felt so close to you it was so lovely and peaceful and flying in the clouds made me so relaxed I had the feeling that you were out there somewhere, that if I had to describe where I thought that your spirit had gone it would be out there above the clouds and maybe on one of the many planets out there, I don’t believe in heaven John, but I do believe that good soles like you go to a peaceful and good place and that you are united with loved ones that have also passed to the spirit world.
John, look after your brother for us because he is making big changes in his life, keep him safe for us both, he will be so far away from us all, we want to ask you to help him settle in and find true happiness with Vanessa, let’s hope that they don’t take too long to get settled in and that his new family like him and that he makes it all work out.
Thank you John for letting me know that you are not at all bitter about being taken so soon it made me so happy to know that you are watching over us all, you proved to me that you are about and are always aware how we are both feeling.
We will never ever be the same people that we where before your death, we live in a world filled with so much pain and sorrow, we try so very hard to be normal but we can’t be those people again, your death has broken both our spirit’s we find no joy in life, we have to watch every one else celebrating, someone getting married, having children, having family celebrations, BBQ, watching their grandchildren growing up and so many events that break our hearts because we will never have any of these things from you, we have all been denied these things all because of the selfishness of one man who could not wait for one minute, in that minute he took the decision to cut in front of you and so taking you from us all.
John there are even more changes that are going to happen to me and your father in the future, we are both in agreement that these changes are for the best, we ask you to help us both to make the right decisions and that when these changes happen we will be able to bear the pain and heartache that we are going though at your death a little better.
Life is such a fragile thing, we all never think that it can happen to us, we never though in a million years that one of our sons would be taken from us. The way that life is it should be the parent’s not the child that dies first John, that is why we cannot move on, we cannot find joy or hope in life, we cannot accept that evil, horrible people are left to reek pain and suffering on people they don’t even know and they are left to do this, but John lovely people like you are taken, you where the most loving, caring beautiful son in the world and you where taken in the most cruellest way, and after your death you where treated no better by people who were supposed to help you receive the justice you where entitled to, this fact makes us so sad John because if anyone deserved justice you did.
There are thousands of people like you who are murdered on our roads, who did not receive the justice they so rightly deserved, families like us that are punished by selfish people that don’t care how they drive and take innocent peoples life’s, there are families just like us going through their own hell, these families have to live in the knowledge that they too are denied justice.
We are going today to the crematorium to yet again leave you flowers and your card, but today we will both be asking ourselves “why”, we will never know the answer to this question John because there is no answer, we will always be wondering if only you had waited, if only the man that murdered you had let you pass, then maybe you would still be alive and our life would be normal again but this will never be.
You are loved and missed by us both John, we will never forget you son
Until we meet again rest in peace.
Luv’s Ya John xxxxxx
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