Darling John,
Another year has passed without you here son, we always looked forward to your birthdays, but now they bring us both nothing but sorrow.
Now when your birthday comes around the pain is even more unbearable to take, we always took it for granted that you would always be here with us all, we never thought that there would come a time when we could never speak to you or ring you and say “Happy birthday Son have a lovely day today”, it really breaks both of our hearts to have to take your birthday card to the crematorium with your flowers.
So many things have happened since your death, so many things that you would of loved to attend, so many family gatherings where you are now always missing from.
Thank you for coming through to us both when we both went to see the medium, you told us both that you where working on your brother Lawrence, and boy you did, thank you John.
We where so pleased that you also loved the music that we choose for you, but we are not sure if the music that you where saying about was the music at your funeral or the music on your site.
You said so many things that afternoon; it gave us both so much comfort.
John I know that you are watching over us all especially in the night time, I don’t sleep of a night and I sense you at the bedroom door, I feel that you are trying to comfort me, trying to let me know that you are always here with me and your father. Tazmin lets us know when you are here; she just sits and stares until one of us speaks to her.
We can only hope that today where ever you are that you are celebrating your birthday with all the family and friends in the spirit world.
Your father last year brought home a lovely rose tree, I have never seen a rose tree like it, one side of the tree has red roses on it and on the other side of the tree it has yellow roses on it, when it is in bloom it looks very striking, we both agree that this tree is very special just like you John.
We will have a drink to you today John, but wish so very much that you where here for us all to celebrate your birthday with you, as parents we can never enjoy this day again as we used to, the pain and grief are so very great that all we can do is get though your birthday as best as we can, because all that we keep thinking of on this day 34 years ago, we where given a little bundle of joy, and the pride we both felt at your arrival was so great. All through your life John you where a joy to us all, we always took it for granted you would be with us all that we would have you with us until we both died and that your brother would have his big brother to look out for him.
John we will never stop missing you and we send all our love to you today, as long as we are both alive we will keep your memories alive, we have your pictures all over the house your father says that it looks like the Tate Gallery, but I tell him that these are all we have left of you and our lovely memories of your life. I carry yours and Lawrence’s pictures with me all the time.
Life is so very sad for us both, your death has left a great big void in all our life’s, there were so many more things that we wanted to say and do with you but it was not meant to be, so many regrets, but one thing that gives us comfort was that you knew that we both loved you so much, and that we are so very proud to have had you as our son, you gave us all so much love, laughter, help and understanding, you had time for everyone and helped so many people son.
Rest in peace John, until we all meet again.
Luv`s Ya.
Mum & Dad xxxxxxx